Todo-sorry sa utol… ELIJAH, AMINADONG NAGI-GUILTY SA PAGKAMATAY NI JM

ni Vinia Vivar @Frankly Speaking | August 16, 2023

Sobrang nakakadurog ng puso ang madamdaming mensahe ni Elijah Canlas sa kanyang bunsong kapatid na si JM Canlas na pumanaw last August 3.

Sa kanyang Instagram page, nag-post ng mahabang liham si Elijah para kay JM at sinimulan niya ito sa pamamagitan ng pagbabalik-tanaw sa masasayang alaala nila.

“I remember the first time I saw you, JM. Mom had chicken pox when she gave birth to you. That's why Kuya Jerom and I weren't able to meet you as soon as possible.

“But I was there when mom and dad first brought you home. They had to run some quick errands, so they left you with me and the maid at home. I was home early since I was still in preschool,” simula ng aktor.

Patuloy niya, “Our parents told me, ‘Kuya ka na! Alagaan mo kapatid mo.' I vividly remember walking slowly to your room. You were on the bed sleeping. I was excited but shy.

“As I laid beside you, I just started to be mesmerized. Kuya na ako. Ayaw kong mainitan ka, so I turned the fan up. That accidentally woke you up but you didn't really cry yet. You just looked at me. Perhaps waiting for me to introduce myself. So, I did. I kept talking to you like you would understand me. You were just staring at me until our parents arrived.”

Ayon kay Elijah, bata pa lamang si JM ay hanga na siya rito dahil sa mga achievements nito.

“Growing up, you always outshone kuya and I. At [four] years old, you already joined us on stage performing in school musicals. You're everyone's baby boy. You'd also compete in Math quiz bees and win. You starred in Team Yey! — giving joy and inspiration to your generation.

“You weren't really formally trained in acting like us but, oh boy, you did excel whenever you're on stage or on screen (watch Unconditional on Netflix to know what I mean). Mapa-Cinemalaya or Virgin Labfest pa iyan. You also remained to be the go-to guy for our country's dubbing industry even as your voice changed over time (he dubbed Coco, Stranger Things, Home Alone, Extraction, Little Einsteins, among many more). I remember being in awe as I watched you dub that Wednesday show recently and telling you how great you are at what you do,” lahad ni Elijah.

Ipinahayag din ng aktor kung gaano niya nami-miss ang kapatid at humingi rin siya ng tawad dahil pakiramdam niya ay marami siyang naging pagkukulang dito.

“I’ve been struggling to write ‘cause I don't think anything will be enough to honor you. I always thought you deserved the best. That you deserved the world. But I realized that you are far too beautiful for this world, JM. We do not deserve you. This world does not deserve you.

“Don't worry about us. None of us are mad. We understand you completely. We just miss you, kulit. I miss you so f***ing much. Forgive Kuya Jelo for all his shortcomings. I'm so sorry we couldn't take away your pain. The guilt and regrets will forever be with us. Walang hanggang patawad para sa lahat,” ang nakakaiyak na mensahe ng aktor sa yumaong kapatid.

Nagpasalamat din si Elijah sa mga masasayang araw na ibinigay ni JM sa buong pamilya lalung-lalo na sa kanya.

Sa huling bahagi ng kanyang liham ay nangako si Elijah na habambuhay niya itong aalalahanin at mamahalin.

“We have an infinite amount of memories to remember you by. Babawi kami, JM. We'll continue all your dreams and goals for us and this country. We'll carry on your amazing legacy. We'll continue being kind and being there for whoever's in need. Like you always do.

We will live by you through each and every second of every day. Walang makakatapat o higit sa 'yo.

“Enjoy ka lang diyan! Don't worry about us. No goodbyes. I'll see you later, JM. I love you more than anything. Mahal na mahal ka namin. Mahal na mahal ka ni kuya. Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal! Habambuhay. Habambuhay,” aniya.