NADINE, AMINADONG NA-TRAUMA SA PANG-IIWAN SA KANYA NI JAMES

ni Vinia Vivar - @Frankly Speaking | March 24, 2021

Sa isang mahabang panayam sa Nylon Manila ay nag-open-up si Nadine Lustre ng kanyang mga pinagdaanan nitong nakaraang taon kabilang na ang breakup with James Reid.

Matatandaang inanunsiyo ng JaDine ang kanilang breakup noong Enero, 2020.

Ayon kay Nadine sa nasabing latest interview, talagang dinaanan niya ang proseso ng healing and moving on and realized na hindi talaga ito nangyayari overtime.

“Gusto ko, 'pag tapos na, tapos. Alam mo 'yun? Or ‘pag may gusto akong mangyari, dapat mangyari na kaagad. But now, I’m allowing myself time to heal, to process things. Ganu'n kasi ako before, like in the breakup, which really changed me and my mindset,” pahayag ni Nadine.

“Before, I wanted to get over it to not get hurt or overthink about it or feel bad… We tend to do that just because we don’t want to be affected. Again, I wouldn’t say I’m completely healed from that, like I’m still going through it. But this time, I'm allowing the time and I'm not rushing myself. It would take a long time, but I know I’ll get there,” patuloy niya.

Aminado rin siyang traumatic para sa kanya ang feeling of abandonment pero slowly ay natututunan na niya itong i-deal.

“I've always been afraid of being left behind. I’m afraid of being abandoned, because that’s how it feels when you’re in a relationship for a long time and you separate. It changes you a lot. It makes you feel like there was something wrong with you that’s why the person left you. Before, I would blame myself. I would think to myself: ‘May pagkukulang ako or may ginawa ako,'” aniya.

“But you know, I would say I’m slowly ascending from that trauma. You can’t put a timeline on it. It’ll just happen.

“But of course, I won’t stop myself from feeling sad. That’s also four years of being together…it’s not like I'm not going to cry. Before, I would stop myself from crying because I’d think it would only make me more sad. When you stop feeling that or going through the process, you’re also not allowing yourself from taking a step higher. Sige, you cry about it, but when you’re done, you move on. But if I don’t cry about it, it’s going to stay there, bottle up, and eventually, I might break down and get messed up even more,” she said.

Bukod sa breakup, isa rin sa mga napag-usapan sa panayam ay ang tungkol sa pagtiwalag niya sa kanyang management (Viva Artists Agency) last year. Pagtatapat niya, nagkaroon siya ng kalayaan nang umalis siya sa poder ng VAA.

“When you say independence, it really is freedom. Freedom to do what you want, say what you want without anyone really stopping you. Before, there were so many things that I couldn’t do. I was branded differently, you know, the usual artista where everyone has to look up to you like you’re a saint, which I’m not.

“As soon as I left the agency, I was able to say no to things that I didn't want to do. I was able to say yes to things that they probably wouldn't take me do, but I really wanted to do. I was able to dress the way that I want, I was able to put out things that are up to the quality that I want. Before, there were so many limitations.”

Aminado naman siyang mahirap ang walang manager.

“I’m not going to say it’s easier. It’s definitely harder. The job is five times harder than before because you don’t have an agency to back you up.

“Now, it’s like, you want to do this? You have to do it by yourself. You have to fund it or find someone to partner with you…no one else is going to back you up financially this time. Mas mahirap siya.

“But it is worth it,” pahayag ni Nadine.